Slight set back..

Just a quick update as I want to log everything that happens during this process. After the doctors appointment I think it was the first time in my life I was desperate for my period to arrive. Hooray 1st of March came along and so did my period. Just 21 days until I can go for my ovulation blood test. A few days after this we received a letter in the post, noticing the stamp on the envelope was from the surgery I couldn't help but get excited. I don't know what I thought it would be, maybe a letter of referral or updates on options? As I quickly scanned the letter I saw NHS funding and automatically thought 'wow this is actually happening'. I then reread the letter and the exact words were 'you will not receive any NHS  funding'. I don't know why I was so disappointed as we didn't even think we would qualify to begin with. Firstly we were quite offended that they even had to state we weren't eligible as we had never asked for funding. We simply asked to be pointed in the right direction. Secondly I was annoyed at how blunt and impersonal this letter was. Not that I wanted a long letter of apology, but something a bit more than 'no funding for you' would have been nice. I guess I should be grateful for them giving us a name of a fertility clinic (as if I couldn't have googled that). 

I was at my parents house when I read the letter while my partner was at work. I went quiet for a while trying to digest the information. My Mum was still chatting away, oblivious to the situation. At that point I couldn't keep the tears in. It sounds silly but I was more upset about the way they had wrote the letter. I went straight onto the clinic website they had suggested and started looking at prices. By then I was pretty upset and I think my Mum had realised. The IUI treatment package was £800 alone (I'm still unsure if this includes the sperm). There were obvious other costs along with this. My first thought was how bad we were at saving and the reality set in that we might not be able to afford this for a long time. My mum being the supportive person she is, gave me the biggest hug and told me she would do anything to help. I knew she meant it and we started reading the success stories on the website, reading about a lesbian couple having twins obviously made me think positive again.

Although this wasn't really a set back because we knew there was a large chance we would not be eligible for funding, it still felt like it was. It just became a lot more clear that this would not be an easy process. It will be worth all the stress in the end and I know it hasn't even begun for us yet. We just need to think positive and keep taking small steps, small steps towards completing our family.